*peers out from behind her life*
It's been a very long time, no?
An explanation, of sorts. I basically abandoned the internet, this journal and all it encompasses and all my email addresses - from lack of interest, because I was avoiding people, because I was no longer the person I was painting in each entry. I I'd lost my best friend, I thought people were using the information here to hurt me, I thought I was dying, I thought the whole world was against me and woe, woe, wow.
Who was I? I don't know. Who did I become? Who I was always going to be, I guess.
It's frightfully melodramatic, but it needn't be. I had a shitful first part of the year. But, hey, here I am. Back and ready to pick up where I left off [although there are new musical loves, new fandoms and a brand new handbag...or two].
To those who think they can't talk to me, Cara especially, you can. It's time to move on and heal the wounds that were so selfishly afflicted upon myself and relationships. It's time to grow and acknowledge our own wants, our own dreams and to be excited for each other and the coming new year. It's no longer about them but us.
Because, hell, isn't that what the season is all about?
It's good to be back. It's even better to be alive. And I miss BFR, yo!
ETA: Dude! I forgot all about icons and stuff. The world is a better place now you can have 100 userpics! [damn you paid accounts]
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quantesque) wrote,
oh farin
